Day 7 Basic DiscoveryIt was at one week when I realized, after talking to Dave, that EVERYTHING had changed for him, and NOTHING had changed for me. That sounds a little cold, but let me explain. My husband travels a fair amount, and is often gone for more than 5 days. In November he was gone for two weeks before I joined him in Thailand. So I found myself going about my regular business - classes, meetings, work, chores - with this subconscious expectation that he would be home anytime now. On the other hand, Dave had to arrange for his new apartment, furniture, vehicle, banking, not to mention just figuring out how to get around in a new country where folks drive teensy weensy cars on the wrong side of the road. Anatomical area affected - none!
Day 14 Basic Discovery
At two weeks I have realized that I am still in subconscious waiting mode, so I'm not yet pining (though when I was in a stress induced bad mode last week my co-workers all blamed it on separation anxiety - I blame it on being a person who has to learn to say no). I have been very busy with work and other things in my life, so I don't have time to sit around and think about that fact that I am alone. Then there's the interesting confluence of events regarding my waistline - with Dave gone the grocery bill is less, and with no need to buy food for a healthy male it is the perfect opportunity for me to go on a diet. And while diet is a very dirty word in my vocabulary (I don't usually weigh myself and rely on being active and eating reasonably well), the recent discovery that I have gained a few too many pounds in my ten years of marriage has lead me down the dark path of calorie denial. And it isn't pretty. Therefore, the place I feel the most pain since Dave left is in my stomach.
Romantic, yes?
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